everyone does stupid things. I just top the lot

Here's the series of events...
1) dont even know her well (still dont)
2) did really stupid things in between like telling her i like her before i really know her (14 Feb)
3) bought a cd for her... but nvr gave it
4) doing more idiotic stuff to distant her and me like telling her theres a girl that looks like her
5) splurged $130 on a lomo for her (27 March)- pushing back my purchase of a new camera. and yes, what am i to do with her lomo now? give it to her still?
6) was told "impossible" (today)
brilliant!

seriously, let me just face up to the fact that i've been avoiding all this while. been evading far too long. kel, wake up and move on!

Word of the day: Impossible